Being a sensitive kind of person, I used to overthink for many small things which I now realized were useless. It was a matter of concern for me that people should not dislike me for any of my actions, even the minute one were important for me. (Ugh!!! I agree that was an act of idiocy). Hence, I always wanted to be the person whom everyone likes.
I was going through a misconception of living on terms of your own V/s others. What was right for me was to make others happy. I was not at all realizing that self importance and enjoying your own life is the pinnacle of the survival. (I am not at all against the point that company of others is not vital.Please, make friends. Enjoy with them. But, don’t let yourself called as advantage material for others.Don’t be that person. For all of this there must be a fine balance.) Gradually, I used to question this madness that why I always need to do things that make others happy. But then, this fear of being disliked by people kept me shut up. I knew this is not right.Somewhere, I am lacking. I was not at all accepting the reality. Or, maybe I didn’t want to.
Days passed and I was on the same path. But as we say, “ Got late but Got right.” I started to analyze each and every bit of situation that I had faced. I then realized that I failed to understand the scenario. I failed to understand that nobody has same perception. I have quit that game now where I was in a state of chaos for a long time and then, this helps me to understand the true colors of people. I can see the change, people now started breaking link with me.They say, I have changed. And then, I correct them, “Yes, a good change”. I have secured a zero in being liked by others and happy in securing full marks of being disliked. I am fine with this. At least, I am now free. I say what I want to. I talk to only those whom I really like. I learn to ignore people which gives me negative vibes. I don’t apologize when I am not wrong. This freedom, these wings have brought me so many haters.
I have stopped giving damn about these haters as well.I keep myself out of such context. I now understand when to react and when not to. I have understood the balance, the limitations what our life want from us and from each and every individual. I have realized that people act all nice to you until you agree with them. The moment you show them the truth or mirror, you become a bad person. People call you all sorts of names. People put labels on you. And you will react to it, at first. The happiest thing for me is that I am not at all interested in any such kind of stuffs. I have learn how to tackle these. Ignorance is the best mantra for these. So,at last continue with your confidence. I have learned to accept that many people will always hate me no matter what I do. So now, I don’t care. I am not going to become your version of me. I am me, and I love myself.
